Wednesday, July 31, 2013

When the Word for This Season is "Hold On!"

It has been four weeks since our {foster} baby, Little Man, left us.

A very, LONG, four weeks.

Two weeks ago we got a beautiful long afternoon visit with him and bio dad.
This was glorious.
This was hard.

I do not know if I can do "just a visit" again
And yet...I know in my heart, I would never say no to seeing that precious face.

Every day I pray for him, long for him, sing over him in spite of the miles that separate us.
I pray for his healing, for his heart and mind, for the miracles concerning his life...and ours...that the Lord has promised me. And recently, I started praying for bio dad and bio mom, for their full restoration emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually.

I am believing for redemption to be all over this journey.
I am believing for things that the natural eye cannot see.
I am believing for this story...and all the characters shout the fame of Jesus Christ.
I am believing for a life song of His grace and glory.

I am believing for the radical.
Not because that is my nature
Or because believing this way comes easy.

I am believing this way because Jesus asked me to do so.
Because He placed this overwhelming momma heart in me.
Because He told me that our stories are not done being intertwined yet.

And how that would be easier...
to shut this door,
to cry and ache and grieve,
and then to just move on with our lives.

But HE will not let me.
He Will Not.

So I sit here
in the tension of the waiting
not knowing exactly HOW I am supposed to walk this road.

"I'll teach you..."
He whispers to my soul in the darkest night.

And each day I check in again...
"Still, Jesus? How much longer?"

His heart smiles and breathes new strength for this day into my weary soul.
"Hold on, baby girl, hold on.  Just a little bit longer.  Just a little bit more."


Kris Camealy said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh Lindsey. ((Hugs)) this is so beautiful--painful, beautiful. Praying with you, my friend.

Karrilee Aggett said... Best Blogger Tips

Praying with you and believing that God's word will not return void, my friend!

JViola79 said... Best Blogger Tips

Lindsey - I cannot imagine the painful road you are on. What you have written here is painfully beautiful. Know that I will be praying for you & this little guy. I will be praying that our God's will would be perfected in this situation. Keep holding on to the One who is holding onto you!


Ms. Kathleen said... Best Blogger Tips

Bless you girl!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Your words are beautiful and strike a chord deep in my heart as I read them again tonight. Thank you for your prayers...what a life line in this season!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Thank you, Ms. Kat! You are a TRUE blessing to me!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Amen. What a beautiful Word reminder tonight! AMEN! I needed that! Thank you!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Dear friend of my heart, thank you for hearing my heart and loving me with your heart, prayers, and words of comfort! {{HUGS}} back

RetiredTeacher7407 said... Best Blogger Tips

A beautiful expression of love from a beautiful heart in tune with the voice of an amazing Savior.

Barbie said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh my heart. So beautiful.

Anita said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh Lindsay... I pray that you will experience, connect, at such a deep level with our Comforter, that you will feel Him carry you through this difficult time.

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