I close my eyes and take deep, cleansing breaths.
One...Two...Three...holding as long as I can,
trying to count to ten in my mind.
I push out my abdomen and then finally release.
I repeat this over and over and over again until I feel that release of tension and anxiety from my body.
Removing it from my soul is another story...
I have teetered the balance between anxiety and peace my whole life, living in the angst of the two, never quite finding the place of rest or comfort that my being longs for.
I am a perfectionist.
I have an artistic nature.
I thrive in pressure
yet it overwhelms me too.
I'm complicated.
There. I said it.
The honest truth.
And yet somehow when I look deep, deep into my soul, deep into the place that only He sees and He knows....I see a little glimpse of what He sees and my soul counts to ten and takes a deep cleansing breath.
"O Lord, You have searched me and known me.
You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down,
And are acquainted with all my ways."
Psalm 139:1-3
You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down,
And are acquainted with all my ways."
Psalm 139:1-3
I love Fridays because I get to
just let my mind and heart and soul collide
in FIVE beautifully scary minutes
and see what words connect on this screen.
And seriously,
there is such freedom in this process.
I just love it!
Oh please join me this week....
You can even just do it with paper and pen at home....
.....easy peasy!
I promise...
...it will quickly become addicting!
Either way....
Happy Five Minute Friday, peeps!!
10 comments:
Lindsey, I love this -- to get glimpses of what He sees, that stunning beauty, that adored, light-filled heart . . . such beauty, girl. Yes, that will keep us going. Love to you, sweet friend.
I love the fact He knows our thoughts - He knows our intentions and what our heart's real desires are. He KNOWS us!
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Thanks for sharing, Lindsey. It's amazing the peace, the hope, the motivation that comes to us when we are able to get just a glimpse of God.
It's such a relief anymore to me, that god sees and knows and accepts and challenges us, just as we are. He makes sens of our complicated messy selves and when we turn and center our eyes on Him, what joy and peace we can have, soul-deep. Blessings, always, sweet friend! XO
I love how you say you are complicated...aren't we all? SO glad God is not, really. He is yet He isn't...and that we can find cleansing breath, peace, unconditional love and truth from Him all the time. That our identity IS in Him alone is so freeing. And we can take in a cleansing breath. Have a great weekend.
Life is one long learning process. You're doing good girl! Amen and have a wonderful day :)
Discovering how God created us to be and then celebrating it, is such a process, but a freeing one...
We are His intricately woven, beautiful, masterful creation... I am still journeying with you to be settled in this truth :)
Hi Lindsey V i'm Alba and served in Haiti during the years of 1997 and 1998 on the Leogane plain. How good to know you and about your life. Thank you for sharing about your identity, I will be following you now!
Beautiful way to draw our attention to Psalm 139--that's one of my favorites!
This is wonderful! I can totally relate with what you were saying about teetering the balance because that's how I feel like I'm living my life, too. Thank you for sharing your heart!
Blessings,
Jamie
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