You know them.
The one whose heart races when a big event is coming
The one whose mind gets carried away with the "certain" impending doom of a life transition.
The one whose paradigm getting shifted feels equivalent to the moving of Gibraltar.
I kinda hate change.
Okay, I really do.
I live with lots of variety and flexibility in my schedule and day.
I discover new interests or amazing truths weekly, if not daily.
I view dressing myself as an adventure, a canvas with where I can showcase my artistic heart.
And then...
It's time to move to Africa.
Or get married.
Or get into foster care.
And I am like, "WHOY! Back up the truck! I've gotta think!!
I.
NEED.
MORE.
TIME.
And then I feel faithless and guilty about my reticence, hesitance, unwillingness to jump blindly into the seasons that the Lord has planned, so He usually gives me SOLID, LARGE road signs as a flail wildly behind the wheel to let me know that I am indeed going in the right direction. And maybe, if I would just let Him drive and SHOW HIS ART for a minute, I might discover an amazing view along the way.
He is so patient.
Loving me.
Holding me.
Keeping my heart,
that He made,
close to His heart.
So I take a deep, deep, deep breath {AGAIN} and promise that I will try to keep my eyes open for the next roller coaster He wants to ride with me.
But I am pretty sure I will still scream.
Cause that's aloud right?
Fridays are the days where I join with this amazing posse -- Lisa-Jo and her Five-Minute Fridayers. The sole mission of this band of writing mavericks is to throw caution completely to the wind and pour heart on paper {ahem...screen} for just 5 minutes without editing or fixing or making it perfect and just so. Today, I needed a few extra minutes....just to get past the incessant editor in my head and the kitty determined to sit on my laptop.....and you know what....this place....there's grace for that too, even when it is scary to press publish and wonder if your words make sense or if your voice matters.
But I do it.
And they do.
And it does......and so do you, my friend.
Have you ever thought about joining?
Why not try it today?
Risk the change!
I would love to share in your journey.....
20 comments:
Oh yes, my sentiments exactly. I wrote about the same conflict between small fun changes like rocking new shoes or a cute outfit and huge scary life changing change where we lean hard into God and pray and know He has to lead or we will be utterly lost, that takes so much more. I get you, and yes, it's totally ok to scream.
I have a hard time with change too. I want my safety zone! But I find too, it may NOT be safe in "my" zone - I need to be in God's zone! :)
Lindsey, I just so needed to hear this beautiful encouragement and wisdom, reminding me of the Father's heart and how He holds us close and gives us, so patiently and lovingly, everything we need {despite any struggles of our heart}. Thank you.
Your honest reflections encourage me. As I read your words, I smiled the whole way through. Why? Because I've been there, too. Different circumstances, but same reactions. As with you, He was (and is) patient and loving, scolding when necessary. He's our daddy, the one who created us and knows us best. So grateful He doesn't forget who WE are even when we struggling remembering who HE is.
Happy FMF!!
I know exactly how you feel. It takes me a loooong time to ease into change.
Yes, screaming aloud is totally allowed!
The thing that kills me about change is that no matter how hard we fight it and no matter the case we launch against it, we are usually quite thrilled with the results of the change. And then we start asking what took us to long to change?! LOL One step at a time...
We rarely feel brave in the moment, right? But I see it all over your words here, friend. Your brave honest words are so good for me this week. Thank you, friend.
I feel like I know you so much better with this honest reflection, Lindsey! Love your heart!
And "Let Him show His art...." I'm taking that with me. That's beautiful. thank you!
I love when you peel back these layers and let the real bits of you show. Your heart is gorgeous, and this bravery thing, it's such a gift--andyes, screaming is aloud, but hopefully, it's joyful, hopeful screaming, because you know, YOU CAN TRUST HIM. ;) XXOO
This meant so much to me...I thought about it all week...the peeling back the layers. It is a new season God is taking me to go beyond the REAL I thought I was giving to the REAL that He is calling me too...it is a hard-to-figure-out journey but I am NOW thankful for it...
Thank you, Nikki, for that....I am learning to give the GUTSY REAL...not just the safe REAL...
You put courage in my heart with your words....so rare does bravery FEEL brave I suppose...I miss you!
hahaah...so true, Sabrina! As always, you hit the nail smack on the head! #LoveThatAboutYou
I KNEW we were kindreds in more than one way....So thankful for a God who "gets" us!
I love that you can connect with the emotions here...a writer's dream and a woman's heartbeat... #LoveToYou
Oh...to encourage an encourager is such a high praise! Thank you for that! {HUGS}
Amen. "God's zone..." Good way to set my mind...
Yay! Cause I scream like a 5 yr old girl often! He is SO patient with me !!
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