Friday, November 4, 2011

Five Minute Friday: I Remember

Oh, yay! It's Friday!

Time to let loose, be free, allow the words to just flow. It's not easy to take the limits off, to unhinge that part of the brain that says, "Filter. Edit. Be careful." And honestly, I don't know that I have it all down yet, so that is why I write on these Five Minute Fridays -- to learn to LET GO....

Last week, I got to be one of the peeps to get the prompt from The Gypsy Mama LIVE.

How thrilling THAT was!

And then to be in a writing class doing TWO 5 minute challenges LIVE!
Scary stuff!
It almost made me want to throw in the towel on this whole writing thing and then.....well, you can read about that HERE!

For today....let's just be free and............REMEMBER!!

Why are you trying so hard to fit in when you were born to stand out?
{via @Inspired_Ones}


Growing up in the balmy breezes of the Caribbean sea, finds you in a life much different from the one of your ancestors, if you are of Anglo-Saxton heritage, that is.

That was me.

Living as a missionary kid.

I was born into that life. I did not choose it.
I guess you would say it chose me.

I can remember from the time that I EVEN can remember, struggling with the dichotemy of what that made me.
How can one person be from two worlds?

I can remember hating it.
Hating that it made me different.
Hating that it made me "special."

And then I would look around me
at the hungry
the poor
the lonely
the broken

And I remember that it made me thankful
for His grace
His goodness
His mercies in my life.

I remember wanting so desperately to fit in
and Finally realizing after a LOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNG time,

That I Never Would.

So I remember deciding to be me.
To love me.
To embrace me.
To walk in my own shoes
To be comfortable in my own skin.

Ahhh, yes. I remember.

STOP. I totally couldn't remember how to spell "dichotemy" while I was typing, which I am still spelling wrong but in the spirit of this writing challenge WILL NOT look it up before I post and PLEASE don't tell me in the comments...I will look it up AFTER I publish for the appeasement of the editor screaming in my head.

Thank you.

I feel better getting THAT off of my chest! HeeHee!! I usually self edit as I go along, and I learned this weekend that it may be holding me back as a writer so I am trying to "give up control" to the Red Pen Bandit. {still taking deep breaths}.

So yeah....ENJOY!


Jacque Watkins said... Best Blogger Tips

Beautiful friend!!

Writingcanvas said... Best Blogger Tips

Though I was not an MK, I can understand being a kid from two different worlds - being adopted, and wondering who I really was and who I looked like and the whys of adoption and learning to be me.  

Enjoyed reading . . .. and remembering with you . . . .

JNCL said... Best Blogger Tips

"dichotomy"  And your post was beautiful.

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Thank you, sweet lady!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh, wow! I am sure you do! I would LOVE to hear more of your story! Thanks for stopping by!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

LOL...thank you -- on both counts!

Sabrinaj98 said... Best Blogger Tips

Sounds like your life was more peaceful once you remembered to be yourself.  Great post :)

alwaysalleluia said... Best Blogger Tips

Loved this, Lindsey. What a  life you have lived so far!  All of the experiences you have had, all food for the pen, stories to tell... you are such a sweet spirit, and I am still mooning over the fact that i got to meet you in person!!  Will I ever 'get over' the Relevant experience?! I hope not. Keep writing friend, let if fly free and unedited when you can.  xxoo

Nancy King said... Best Blogger Tips

It's funny because as I'm reading these posts, I'm finding myself trying to hurry through them. Like the writing portion! Silly me. I remember thinking when this morning peeked through that YAY it's Friday thought as well, because it's Shabbat this evening and I so need the rest of it. I always felt awkward in life too, my father was a Marine for 30 yrs and after retiring went straight into the Ministry. I hated the constant moving around with the military and then to think we were done with it only to start again with the Ministry. Ahh but I'm thankful because as much as a young girl could not stand moving around and never having friends; I love more that I can be very flexible in almost all things I do.  Thank you for sharing and have a blessed (Brakhot) day!

Shelly said... Best Blogger Tips

Can relate to this thought though I am not a missionary kid, but a pastors wife.  We have moved eight times and even though we didn't live in different countries, we still had to find our way among new people.That just being you before an audience of one is freeing. Enjoyed your post.

BethFerrell said... Best Blogger Tips

I think it is so awesome to be raised a missionary!  What an honor.  But you know, I think each kid feels "different" when she is growing up.  I was taller than a lot of girls and I hated it.  I always tried to hide, but God never allowed it.

Love you post.  Have a wonderful day!

Lindsey Zarob said... Best Blogger Tips

beautiful post! i can't relate to growing up in two worlds but i certainly can relate to not fitting in and not being sure where i could possibly fit in. thank you for sharing your heart :-)

Brenda said... Best Blogger Tips

Glad you decided to be you! Beautiful post...honesty always is beautiful. 

Africa/Debbie said... Best Blogger Tips

I love your writing!! Thanks for sharing these personal moments/memories with us!!

Again I am so glad you got to go to Relevant and have such a great time!!! :) 

Christina Gilliland said... Best Blogger Tips

I love your writing! Thanks for being you! 

Jamie @ Six Bricks High said... Best Blogger Tips

Love the little glimpse into your growing up years.  And that whole deciding to be me thing - I wish I would have done that at a much younger age.  Great 5 minute post!

Annie said... Best Blogger Tips

I'm so glad you're you, and for all the wonderful worlds that have shaped who you are & who you're becoming.  My life is richer because of the unique perspective you bring.

rubberbacon said... Best Blogger Tips

yeah it's definitely hard to reconcile parents choices, I've only recently begun to appreciate the church I grew up in!  Thanks for visiting my blog yesterday.  Hope you have a great weekend!

Jen said... Best Blogger Tips

You are such a talented writer!  Every time I read your 5 minute Fridays, I am amazed by the depth you are writing with such a short amount of time.  You are GREAT!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

In many ways, yes...but never have quite stopped "thinking too much" LOL!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

So sweet! "Mooning" - I love that! Hahahah!! It was a remarkable I will treasure for a long time!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Wow! What intense variety your life has held, and I agree, the flexibility as an adult is really so valuable in many situations.

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Wow! 8 times! That is not easy! Meeting new people, adjusting to the already established dynamic within a church, and remembering to be yourself in all of that -- makes you realized how much it TRULY has to be all about HIM.

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh, I can understand that! I was "shorter" for awhile and had a "bully-ish" type girl in middle school who wanted to "lord" that over me. So many insecurities and hurts translate across culture and neighborhoods....thankful for His reminder that He made me just as I am.

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Thank you for understanding! I do think we all deal with that in our own ways....remembering that helps me to consistently give grace to ours in their tough spots, and when I forget, He helps me remember.

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Thank you so much, Brenda! The honesty thing - my strength and my glad that you stopped by!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

You are so kind, Debbie! I really appreciate all of your encouragement for me going to Relevant.

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh, thank you, Christina! You are so sweet!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

yeah...I think I had a lot of those moments in my life - "come-to-Jesus-moments" my best friend calls them.  Thankful He never stops working on me.

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Awww...thank you to my sweet little New Yorker! ;-) I count you dearly as one of my blessings...thankful for the gift that God gave me of YOU!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Yeah, it took me awhile to be thankful for the life I lived as a child, but once I got it, probably around college, I have never stopped being thankful for who that made me into today.

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh, Jen! This means so much to me. I was having some insecurities about this at the conferenece last weekend, and then I realized how the devil was trying to snuff out what God wants to use for His glory.

Cara @ WhimsySmitten said... Best Blogger Tips

Lindsey, I love the uniqueness of your story, that you share from the heart of you and that you bring a perspective I can't even begin to imagine into the conversation.  You have a beautiful voice that is YOURS and the world needs it.  Keep writing, keep sharing.  You are a blessing. 

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh, friend! Your words mean so much to me. Thank you for that. I truly cherish them.

Melissa said... Best Blogger Tips

So lovely. I am not a missionary kid and I grew up with family where I was born and I still struggled, I think everyone does, with trying to just be me. I think everyone finds themselves at some point trying to be like someone, some other group.

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