Sunday, December 11, 2011

My Broken Pieces :: Redeemed

It was about a year ago that I first heard about the One Word community -- a gathering of people prayerfully asking the Father to give them one word to individually guide their lives for the year.

And I wanted in.
To simplify.
To slow down.
To listen better
Without all the words
and timelines
and goals
and noise
because for me, I was too caught up in my own perfectionistic world
so One Word
was....perfect....for me.

So the Lord dropped the word REDEEMED into my heart, my spirit.
And I set off on a journey to discover what that meant for me, what He was speaking to me, and what would happen inside of me.

I realized that if I were to highlight a word for 2010 in hindsight, it would be GRACE. And as this year progressed, it seemed that the majority of the lessons were still centered around grace. In fact, you will find twice as many tags for grace in my history than redeemed. So I wondered if I had chosen the wrong word, if I had not heard Him correctly, but I pressed on determined to walk the path and complete the road of discovery He had been guiding me through.

And then last month, I was talking to a friend, sharing bits and pieces of my journey, my struggles, my fears, my pain, my ugly, and I revealed how I had finally seen God's hand and heart after several years of mistrust and hurt and how through my tears, laughter and thankfulness came.

I, then, heard myself saying,

"It's amazing how in the midst of the biggest hurt of my life. In the midst of the trials and pain, I am finding joy. And nothing has really changed, but the brokenness makes more sense now. And I realize that He is REDEEM-ing everything for His glory, for my future, for a treasure to give to the world."

And the words caught in my throat.
And I gasped in that incredible moment of realization....

He has redeemed my broken pieces.

He is using the hard.
He has plans even in my mess.
He is good even when sorrow is like my own skin.
Everything is being redeemed
by the One who knows me better than I could ever know myself.

Nothing is left spilled and wasted on the ground.
Even the chaff has purpose with Him.

My life is Redeemed.


Jen said... Best Blogger Tips

That is so cool, Lindsey!  I love how God speaks to us and sometimes we don't understand it at the time, but He is faithful to reveal more to us.  I've already started thinking and praying about my "word" for 2012.

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Thanks, Jen! It is a tapestry with this single thread running through it that seems insignificant at the time, but then, you step back and see the radiant color shining through!

Oooo...I am thinking prayerfully about OneWord for next year. It is always kind of scary to me as I want to make sure it is HIS leading and now my choice. Does that make sense?

Elaine said... Best Blogger Tips

Lindsey, I SO resonate with this post! I love the idea of grace and being redeemed going hand in hand. I often resist receiving these from God because I just want to be perfect the first time, on my own. But I'm learning that being perfect could never be as beautiful as being imperfect and redeemed by one who is Love.  Your words are beautiful, and cause me to glorify God--thanks for sharing!

Angie Neal said... Best Blogger Tips

This was so beautifully written. Such a profound example of redemption yet easy to understand. Thanks for sharing your heart!

Jenn said... Best Blogger Tips

Beautiful…yes redeemed…it never ceases to amaze me what God uses in my life and others, not often what I think it should be, but so often things I would have tossed aside as unusable….

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Thank you, Elaine! It makes me happy to know that this resonates with you too and maybe makes you know just how much He loves you!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Thanks so much, friend! Your words are always like heartfelt treasures to this "words" girl's soul!!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

It IS amazing isn't it? Even when I question Him in the mix...He is STILL faithful!

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