My mind is a jumble tonight as I sit to type out my 5 minutes.I think about my week, my thoughts, my heartbeats that have led me up to this moment. I have shared here in this space about my aches, my worries, and my fears that maybe I am just not cut out for us.
I look deep into my heart and soul and come up empty, void because this heart loves much and hurts deep and this mind thinks long and works harder than it should to understand what only the spirit can truly know.
I wish I knew all of the answers, the reasons, the pathways of His crazy, radical, dizzy grace but I find myself often at a loss to know and understand.
And still somehow, even if it only seems to be in the margins, there His love shines through, like a beautiful splash of light across those hidden dark spaces of my soul, reminding me...when I will listen...
I am here.
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9 comments:
I know that jumbled up feeling and know too, God filling the emptiness. Thanks for sharing your heart!
Sweet Lindsey - you touch my heart with every word tonight. Your pain and frustration and longing -- they matter, my friend. He sees and knows you, loves you deep and high and wide and long. This speaks so much truth: "I look deep into my heart and soul and come up empty, void because this heart loves much and hurts deep and this mind thinks long and works harder than it should to understand what only the spirit can truly know." Praying for you tonight as the Spirit intercedes with groanings too deep for words. He will carry you.
XOXO
"I wish I knew all of the answers, the reasons, the pathways of His crazy, radical, dizzy grace ... "
I wish I knew too. But I love how you put it. Yes, His grace IS crazy, radical, and dizzying for sure! How thankful I am, too.
Beautiful post.
"I wish I knew all of the answers, the reasons, the pathways of His crazy, radical, dizzy grace " Oh my friend. how msterious His ways are to us, but how faithfully He brings us through the spirals of the unknown, tucking us close under His wing, that we might learn to rest content in His heart for us. Bless you, my friend!
Your thoughts touched me so, Lindsey. Thank you!
"this heart loves much and hurts deep"....so true. and so blessed His heart loves even more and hurts even deeper. what grace!
striving to stop and listen with you today. Thank you!
Love how you talked about the light shining through the darkness. It's like the glimmer of hope when everything around us feels like despair.
What can I say? HUGS :)
Thank you for sharing your heart today. Praying God comes and fills the empty places in your heart.
Lindsey. No words, just love to you, friend. (okay, that was eight, but you know...)
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