Five Minute Friday: I Remember

Oh, yay! It's Friday!

Time to let loose, be free, allow the words to just flow. It's not easy to take the limits off, to unhinge that part of the brain that says, "Filter. Edit. Be careful." And honestly, I don't know that I have it all down yet, so that is why I write on these Five Minute Fridays -- to learn to LET GO....

Last week, I got to be one of the peeps to get the prompt from The Gypsy Mama LIVE.

Eeeeee!

How thrilling THAT was!

And then to be in a writing class doing TWO 5 minute challenges LIVE!

Scary stuff!

LET ME TELL YOU!

It almost made me want to throw in the towel on this whole writing thing and then.....well, you can read about that HERE!

For today....let's just be free and............REMEMBER!!

Why are you trying so hard to fit in when you were born to stand out?

{via @Inspired_Ones}

GO.

Growing up in the balmy breezes of the Caribbean sea, finds you in a life much different from the one of your ancestors, if you are of Anglo-Saxton heritage, that is.

That was me.

Living as a missionary kid.

I was born into that life. I did not choose it.
I guess you would say it chose me.

I can remember from the time that I EVEN can remember, struggling with the dichotemy of what that made me.
How can one person be from two worlds?

I can remember hating it.
Hating that it made me different.
Hating that it made me "special."

And then I would look around me
at the hungry
the poor
the lonely
the broken

And I remember that it made me thankful
for His grace
His goodness
His mercies in my life.

I remember wanting so desperately to fit in
FOR.
SO.
LONG.
and Finally realizing after a LOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNG time,

That I Never Would.

So I remember deciding to be me.
To love me.
To embrace me.
To walk in my own shoes
To be comfortable in my own skin.

Ahhh, yes. I remember.

STOP.

Ugh...so I totally couldn't remember how to spell "dichotemy" while I was typing, which I am still spelling wrong but in the spirit of this writing challenge WILL NOT look it up before I post and PLEASE don't tell me in the comments...I will look it up AFTER I publish for the appeasement of the editor screaming in my head.

Thank you.

{sigh}

I feel better getting THAT off of my chest! HeeHee!! I usually self edit as I go along, and I learned this weekend that it may be holding me back as a writer so I am trying to "give up control" to the Red Pen Bandit. {still taking deep breaths}.

So yeah....ENJOY!