You just received ANOTHER wedding invitation and you dread the RSVP -- Number attending __1__.
You go out with your group of friends and you wonder, "Will I be the 3rd, 5th, 11th wheel.....AGAIN???
You hear a woman complain about her husband's dirty shoes or dishes and you think, "At least you have someone to hold you before you go to sleep tonight....", but you say nothing...you DON'T want the pity!
You wonder how to survive in a world that seems focused on couples, marriage, & relationships.
You wonder how to function even in the Body of Christ that preaches and teaches FAMILY as the MOST important, primary, and basic institution that God has established.
I know your pain.
You see, I, too, have been there. I know what it feels like to cry yourself to sleep and wonder, "Father, have you forgotten about me? I have tried so hard to wait on Your time, Your plan, Your purpose? Am I still not good enough? When will someone love ME?"
I feel embarrassment in my questioning, yet I know that He holds my fragile heart and catches my tears....and then I hear Him whisper to me...."Remember the cross..."
"Father, why have you forsaken Me?" - Jesus
Jesus spoke those words? He was human? Like me? He was real. He was raw. He felt heartbreak. He felt pain.
He felt MY pain. HE KNOWS MORE PAIN. He not only holds my heart and catches my tears, but HE walked a mile in MY shoes and farther and farther and farther until every pain I would faced was walked out. NOW, He is prepared to walk the distance with me, to comfort me, to pick me up, to prod me forward, to challenge, and to encourage because HE KNOWS.
HE KNOWS!!
HE KNOWS YOUR PAIN!
And as I now feel another, deeper, harsher, more ravaging pain (for me personally) -- a greater longing, a chasm filled with unfilled promises -- MOTHERHOOD.
I remember. He reminds me.
"I have walked miles farther so your path would be lighter and your burden would be easy....REST, my child.....REST...."
"I KNOW YOUR PAIN."
He felt MY pain. HE KNOWS MORE PAIN. He not only holds my heart and catches my tears, but HE walked a mile in MY shoes and farther and farther and farther until every pain I would faced was walked out. NOW, He is prepared to walk the distance with me, to comfort me, to pick me up, to prod me forward, to challenge, and to encourage because HE KNOWS.
HE KNOWS!!
HE KNOWS YOUR PAIN!
And as I now feel another, deeper, harsher, more ravaging pain (for me personally) -- a greater longing, a chasm filled with unfilled promises -- MOTHERHOOD.
I remember. He reminds me.
"I have walked miles farther so your path would be lighter and your burden would be easy....REST, my child.....REST...."
"I KNOW YOUR PAIN."
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