Thursday, October 4, 2012

31 Days of Story {Day 4) First Lessons

"I am so behind. I will never catch up."


I cried, first silently and then mournfully, into my pillow. I was "supposed" to read a Psalm a day, and the chapters were woefully stacking up. I sat, bleary-eyed, fighting sleep, scrambling to read fast enough to get back on my carefully planned out reading track.

My nine-year-old sobs carried through the house to the ears of my ever-attuned mother, in spite of my attempts at muffling them.

"What's the matter, baby?" with an attempt at hiding the tone of worry in her voice, she questioned as she walked into the room noting the lump under the covers,

"Nothing..." I meekly mewed, tears streaming down my face.

But with continued coaxing and well-discerned guesswork, the words fell out of my mouth in a jumble of snobs and sniffs.

"I am supposed to read a Psalm a day, Mommy, and I am SO behind!! I have been trying so hard to catch up all week but I just keep getting more and more behind."

"Who told you to read a Psalm a day?"

"I don't know...." I shrugged, slowly starting to breathe again.

With wisdom and understanding, Mom said, "Lindsey, Jesus is not mad at if you do not get to read one Psalm every day."

"I know, Mommy, but I really wanted to!"

"I know you do, and that is what makes Jesus happy. Your heart. The fact that you WANT to read your Bible and try to do it every day makes Him happy."

"Really, Mommy..."

"Yes, Lindsey..."

"Why don't you go to sleep now? Okay, little girl?"

"Okay, Mommy..."

I snuggled down under the covers as my mom tucked me in.

"I love you, Lindsey."

At nine years old and a natural-born "good girl," I had just learned my first lesson, in a long line of journeys to come, about His crazy grace.

And my heart would never quite be the same.

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Alia_Joy said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh, tender heart seeking him even at a young age. He is pleased with you, Lindsey.

Wendy said... Best Blogger Tips

I so love your heart sweet friend. Both as that little girl and the woman you are today. Thank you for sharing. Blessings.

Ms. Kathleen said... Best Blogger Tips

Ah..... this is so sweet. I was never the "good girl" - what a long story that is - so this made me smile not because it reminded me of me but of my kids. Being raised by parents who love the Lord is so wonderful. Now, I'm not saying I was a perfect parent but being raised in ungodly chaos to marrying a man of God and raising children for the Lord - there is quite a difference! BLESS YOU!

Annie | said... Best Blogger Tips

We are cut from the same cloth.

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