Wednesday, October 19, 2011

{RE}discovering Him :: Day 19 - The I AM

"When is this season going to end?"

In nature, about every 3 months or so, the seasons change -- fresh spring, balmy summer, radiant fall, and chilly winter -- unless, of course, you grew up in the Caribbean like I did and it is summer all year long or in the Arctic get the idea.

Seasons are a part of life, and sometimes seasons are never-ending and excruciatingly long and other times, they zip by causing you to lament their passing.

So you can imagine what season I am in, right?

"Daddy, are we there yet?"

For the past 2 years, personal heartache, natural diaster, chronic physical pain, difficult interpersonal issues, cross-Atlantic moving, delayed dreams, and an overall sense of "Who-the-heck-am-I?" have dominated this season, and while some things have moved forward and small changes have happened, I have wondered OFTEN how long this interval of life could possibly last!

And yet....
{There always seems to be an "and yet...." with God, right?}

And yet, in these past two years, I have learned SO much that would most likely have been impossible without this season.

I have been REDEEMED by An Amazing Man.

His Grace is my anthem.

The Love of the King holds me up every day.

How I got this place has many layers and many blog posts to truly tell the full story, but somewhere along the way, I learned this....

My Christian walk is less about proving my love for Jesus as much as it is about acknowledging that....





I attribute a big part of that to podcast teachings by Joseph Prince that I began to listen to.

One, in fact, really stands out to me,

"You are loved by the Beloved. When you walk into a room, no matter what others think or say, it doesn't matter, because you can say and remind yourself, 'The beloved of Christ has just walked into the door......and that's me!'"

It's funny because when you change your thinking {which I have to CONSTANTLY do, by the way}, it transforms how you see the world. Suddenly what others think or say doesn't REALLY matter because the Creator of the universe who just so happens to know me by name and be acquainted with ALL of my ways....LOVES ME!

So yeah, like I said, I have to remind myself ALL-THE-TIME to walk in this assured confidence, to stop repetitively proving myself, to yield daily my trust in Him and His perfect plan and His unwavering love NO-MATTER-WHAT, even when all I want to say is....

"When is this season going to end?"


{RE}discovery :: This post is reposted from August 23rd -- almost 2 months ago, and I can already see how God has done an amazing work in my heart, drawing me closer and closer to His heart. What I am {RE}discovering is how His heart is SO for me that he never gives up, never lets go, never gets "put off" by my hesitance or impatience. He loves me. I am His Beloved.

And. SO. ARE. YOU!


Katy said... Best Blogger Tips

Oh now I get it....God's moved me to the Arctic! ;) 
Love hearing little glimpses into your walk and what God's been teaching. =)

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

LOL! Oh, how I understand that feeling so much! Love to you, sweet one!!

JeriT said... Best Blogger Tips

Thank God He knows we need those seasons. I have to change my thinking all the time too :D So amazing how things can be so different from one second to the next. Your words bless me today.

Melissa said... Best Blogger Tips

Yes!  I am so thankful that I don't -have to- prove my love to Him.  I've been in a dark season for what seems like forever.  Even though I don't always feel His presence, I've learned a lot--including how to lean on His promises because I KNOW they are true.

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

Yes...changing my much a happy for His help!

lindseyfoj said... Best Blogger Tips

I am SO sorry to hear that you, too, have been in a dark season. I pray that you find Him in ways that He has for you!

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